Monday, April 16, 2012
Just for today, I have to start forgiving myself and let go of any guilt I harbor for failing or not getting the chance to make amends to someone who is no longer able to hear my apology. If I hurt someone who is not able to receive my amends, may God grant me the comfort in remembering the good I hopefully showed that person before the selfishness, egoism or whatever else of my alcoholism inflicted damage. And if I can no longer go to that person for whatever reason although I wish I could, let my amends to that person be progress in recovery and not imposing injury or hurt on anyone else. But, in every instance, forgiving has to begin at home; without forgiving myself, I probably cannot "allow" anyone else to forgive me. Today, I take responsibility for harm I did someone to whom I can no longer make amends, and my sincerest apology may be to progress beyond holding onto guilt and growing in recovery; there will be no amends if I empower my guilt to make me take up the bottle again. And our common journey continues. Just for today. - Chris M., 2012
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