Just for Today
Thursday, May 17, 2012
"He was drinking to hold on to his job, to hold on to his wife, to hold on to his sanity. Finally, he was drinking to keep away those little men, and those strange voices, and the organ music that came out of the walls." - Alcoholics Anonymous, Third Edition, 1976, Ch 8, p 512.
Just for today, grant me the understanding that the reasons and excuses I used in order to justify drinking are now the reasons that I should NOT drinking. If I drank out of fear of losing a job, let me NOT drink to keep it; if I drank with uncertainty that I might lose a spouse or loved one, let me NOT drink to have a chance at salvaging the relationship; if I drank to stop for a while the hallucinations that were not real, let me NOT drink to extinguish them forever. The desperate excuses that I used to drink can now, ironically, become the reasons NOT to drink. In the end, however, as the Big Book repeats time and again, I am only drying out and not sobering up if I hinge my recovery on something other than for myself. Today, I choose not to drink for myself and not to achieve another gain or avoid a pending consequence; by becoming sober for myself, I am given greater strength and courage to deal effectively with whatever consequences of drinking await me. And our common journey continues. Just for today. - Chris M., 2012
Thursday, May 17, 2012
"He was drinking to hold on to his job, to hold on to his wife, to hold on to his sanity. Finally, he was drinking to keep away those little men, and those strange voices, and the organ music that came out of the walls." - Alcoholics Anonymous, Third Edition, 1976, Ch 8, p 512.
Just for today, grant me the understanding that the reasons and excuses I used in order to justify drinking are now the reasons that I should NOT drinking. If I drank out of fear of losing a job, let me NOT drink to keep it; if I drank with uncertainty that I might lose a spouse or loved one, let me NOT drink to have a chance at salvaging the relationship; if I drank to stop for a while the hallucinations that were not real, let me NOT drink to extinguish them forever. The desperate excuses that I used to drink can now, ironically, become the reasons NOT to drink. In the end, however, as the Big Book repeats time and again, I am only drying out and not sobering up if I hinge my recovery on something other than for myself. Today, I choose not to drink for myself and not to achieve another gain or avoid a pending consequence; by becoming sober for myself, I am given greater strength and courage to deal effectively with whatever consequences of drinking await me. And our common journey continues. Just for today. - Chris M., 2012
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