Sunday, July 6, 2014
Today, I can simplify and "de-mystify" my Program of recovery with three basic but essential concepts: choice by free will, consequences, and responsibility. Discarding, for now, all the internal reasons I can produce to "justify" my drinking - I have a compulsion, and its "dis-ease" of addiction compels me to feed it with anger, fear, resentment, loneliness, grief. In the end, through it all, drinking comes down to an essential truth: it is my choice and mine alone. And my choice to drink, as with all other choices I make, brings consequences; and with those consequences comes responsibility to those consequences. I thus have a simple decision to make, namely if I want to be responsible to the consequences of my choice to drink. For me, the past consequences of my drinking grew progressively harsher, more demanding and never became less as I continued to drink. And because now I do not want to face the consequences, I will not be responsible to them by making a simple but obvious choice: don't drink. Today, I have the choice to drink or not; I pick the latter because the first bears consequences that are too heavy for me. And our common journey continues. Step by step. - Chris M., 2014
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