Sunday, April 6, 2014
Today, I will try to appreciate the freedom that I have found in sobriety or, more precisely, the physical and emotional confines of active drinking that exist no more. Drunk, I had no choice but to feel bad, physically if not mentally and spiritually; I had no choice but to do everything my way because there was no other way; I had no choice but to lie, if even sporadically, to hide or dodge the consequence of some misdeed; I had no choice but to feel self-loathing, pity, shame and guilt because I didn't know there could be something better. Sober, I have the choice to feel good instead of being locked into the bad; I have the choice to understand my way isn't always the best and seek the guidance of something stronger for a better way; I have the choice not to lie because I don't have a misdeed to deny; I have the choice to let go of the self-deprecation because I have the promise of finding a worthy self-image. Today, in sobriety, I have the freedom not to be jailed in the physical, emotional and spiritual cell by being drunk and, God granting, my path to freedom is built on the Steps of the Program. And our common journey continues. Step by step. - Chris M., 2014
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