Tuesday, May 8, 2012
"Resentment is the 'number one' offender. It destroys more alcoholics than anything else." - Alcoholics Anonymous, Third Edition, 1976, Ch 5, p 64
Just for today, admitting that I may have little success in letting go of all my resentments, I re-examine that defect of character to identify what or who I resent - and why. If I resent or envy others who can drink or I cannot accept the rest of my life without drinking, my resentment is likely against the condition of alcoholism or addiction - in which case I have fallen short in admitting I am powerless. I may resent that something stronger than me - alcohol - is what I cannot control. Or I am resent the ex-boss or estranged spouse or partner who will not rehire or come back to me even if I have stopped drinking. But whatever or whoever I resent, the reasons are likely that I am resentful because I cannot what controls me, or that I will never have again the ability to drink or that my self-esteem and ego have been bruised by rejection. In the end, if the root of my resentments are grounded in the dis-ease of alcoholism, I need to again try to fully surrender that I have no control over it and, instead of battling addiction, I will embrace sober-holism. Today, I procliam that I am a sober-holic. And our common journey continues. Just for today. - Chris M., 2012
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